Sometimes, if you can’t be what you want to be, you just gotta live with it.
Sometimes, your parents aren’t your best rolemodels after all.
Sometimes, they’re actually your guide. Not your rolemodel. There is a difference.
Sometimes, the ‘you’ in one language, is not a ‘you’ in another.
Sometimes, what you say and what you think don’t match.
Sometimes, what you intend and what they say about it differs.
Sometimes, to get a picture of who you are, you think of what people say about you. Is that what you’re suppose to follow?
Sometimes, you want to say something, and it’s just an assumption. But to the others, they think you already know.
Sometimes, you try to participate. They don’t deny you, but you don’t fit in.
Sometimes, you don’t know that there is a certain something, and therefore you cannot ask of that something.
Sometimes, they want you to find out about something that you don’t know the existence of.
Sometimes, they think you know, yet you don’t.
Sometimes, you think of these things. Sometimes you don’t.
Sometimes, your parents want you to do something wrong. You know it is wrong, but you just know that they mean to do something else. Yet, you have to find out yourself.
Sometimes, you question if the others are right.
Hey, there are many possibilities in life. From my point of view, you can take life in two ways. Passively and Actively. I prefer to do the latter, and I don’t plan to change, even though it did cause me an unforgettable pain in my heart.
You just know, one thing is certainly right. The Words of Allah, Al-Qur’an.
(maaf kalo gw pake bahasa inggris, soalnya.. lebih mood..)
Sekarang aku sadar. Dahulu, diri gw gak seperti ini. Mengapa? Dahulu, aku hidup di Australia. Dahulu, aku memakai bahasa Inggris. Kalo menurut kamu, bisa diterjemahkan begitu saja (semua kebiasaanku, budi pekerti, table manners, dll) dari satu bahasa ke bahasa lain. Kamu salah. Budaya berbeda, maka penggunaan istilah pun berbeda, sistem pendidikan berbeda, pokoknya serba beda. Ditambah otak gw yang rada” lemot gitu… heh.
Thank you Tande for forgiving me. Thank you Trap for being my rolemodel. Thank you Anu and Bayu for giving me laughter, yet it seems that I can’t joke like you guys. Thank you Finka, for listening to all my heart. Thank you Anggie and Ninies. You have guided me, befriended me, lectured me… and gave me lessons which were very valuable. Thank you Biela for your affection and care. You guys rock! Oh yeah, thank you Rhesa for calling me Gichie.
Thank you Nazmi for giving me courage. Thank you Galih, for being my truest best friend until now.
Thank you Dad. You have given me things that I needed, you have given me the material, solid foundations of my life, even though, you were not a rolemodel to be followed, but your lessons do mean something. Thank you mum, I love you, you gave birth to me, you were my rolemodel from the beginning. Your lessons were the moral foundation of my life. You differed the Good and the Bad.
But most of all, thank You, Allah, the Most Graceful, Most Merciful. It is because of You I exist. It is because of You that I am what I am.
Mulai sekarang, aku pengen menjadi seseorang. Aku pengen tahu apa yang harus aku lakukan. Aku pengen melakukan apa yang harus aku lakukan. Aku tidak bisa menghapus pandangan orang lain terhadap diriku, karena itu bukan hak aku. Ya… sebenernya emang ini cita-cita jangka pendekku, setelah masuk kelas 8 dan disadarkan oleh temen”.
Do the best you can do, be the best you can be.
OK… tahap pertama: berusaha untuk tidak ngebojeg sama sekali! (mending ngeledek aja)